Chronic illness bites

Today I was frustrated about living with Neutropenia. I was just sick of it all: bone pain moderate even with pain meds; fever; raw sore throat; fatigue; and just over-all feeling of 'feeling like crap'. Yet, I feel a need to go about my day as if I'm just fine. When in reality, I want to scream! I just don't want the hurt any more. I don't want the pain. I don't want to think about the fact that I could really sick at any moment. People ask, "How are you?" I answer I'm fine because who really wants to hear about it all the time. I realize I write on this blog in a positive way, but thought you would want to see the other side- that I don't feel positive all the time-and it's normal to feel this way sometimes. I hope those with chronic illness don't feel this way every day-that they can see the good things more often than not. But when you do feel down, know that you are not alone and it's okay to feel this way sometimes-it's normal! Have a great week everyone. Kat