August 2014 update, keeping off gluten

Hi everyone. Hope you are doing well. Sarah, thanks so much for your note; I'm so glad you are doing well. Keep it up. I'm glad this blog can help someone. Feel free to ask my any questions.
An update on my health-I've been doing great. Keeping off gluten has done wonders for the symptoms I had for years. The constant pain, sore throats, and intermittent lung pain are gone. I still get low grade fevers due to the neutropenia but it stays between 99-100.  But I feel great! The diet can be hard but I'm able to make it work and have been getting better at it. Please note: I do not believe that gluten causes neutropenia nor going off gluten fixes it. But the other symptoms that I have been dealing with for 7 years seem to have gone away. I do believe gluten can cause issues in some people. Anyway, just wanted to clarify. Again, hope you are all doing well. Take care. Kat

Reaching out...November 2013

Hi Michelle. I am so sorry for your frustrations. I have had similar issues and struggles. Some days are good and other are not. And, you do muster up all the energy you can just to get through the day. Please feel free to write again and let me know your email address if you want to exchange emails. I would be happy to do so. I will not publish your message or email. I will be thinking about you. Take care. Kat

Lower counts... November 2013

Hi everyone. Thanks for reading my blog. I hope you find it helpful to you. As for an update on me, I am still having trouble with increased bone pain, sore throats, low-grade fevers, and other intermittent symptoms. I try to take care of myself so that I can keep myself as healthy as possible, which seems to be the best preventive care right now. My white blood counts has fallen below 2000, or 2.0, and my neutrophil count is below 300. I am exercising again, taking vitamins, eating lemons and fruits and veggies, and drinking water. Washing hands. Will be hard to keep the germs from others at bay, but gotta try. Hope you are all doing well. You are in my thoughts. Feel free to write anytime. Kat

Living with chronic illness

Hi everyone. Hope you are doing well. Wanted to write about living with a chronic illness. Some days are good. Some days are bad. And, well, other days suck. Others may not know what to say or do when you are living with a chronic illness. After all, they don't necessarily see any thing. I know that's frustrating. I've been there too. You can live with symptoms for some time-just becomes part of daily life. Family may not understand. Friends do not understand. And, your doctor may not even know what to do. You may even be so frustrate you lose hope. Please do not feel hopeless. Keep trying to live as healthy as you can. Reach out to those who understand. Know that what you feel physically and emotionally are real. Take care of yourself. Kat

Reaching out..... Please respond

Hi there. Thanks to the individual that sent a message recently. I am so sorry about your experience with cyclic neutropenia. Please feel free to write again, and include your phone or email- whatever would be the best way for me to get in touch with you. I would be more than happy to talk to you. I went years without knowing anyone with neutropenia and it's almost validating to do so! So please let me know. I do not post the comments, so no one will see it but me. Honestly, I remember talking to someone who had neutropenia and I almost felt a sigh of relief-like I'm not crazy; this is real! So please reach out. I would love to talk with you. Kat

Sick of symptoms, but try to stay positive,October 2013

Hello blog readers. Hope you are well. Thank you for reading this blog; you are appreciated. The bad bone pain I was struggling with a couple weeks ago did go away. I still have it every couple days but at least it's not every day right now. Thanks for your concerns. Now, I'm dealing with tonsillitis that is bad and lung pain that makes my ribs feel like they are broken when I take deep breaths sometimes. I know it's the neutropenia working overtime, but really? Can't you take a break? I really try to stay positive. I do feel blessed with many things that I do have in my life. But some times, I just want to feel no physical pain at all. Days like today make me want to scream: is that too much to ask? Ugh. I know many of you feel the same whether you have neutropenia or you struggle with other things. I am aware that every one struggles with something. I don't pretend that I am the worst off. I don't believe that at all. Some times I just want to feel 'good'-no pain, no symptoms, no fever. On the bright side-just so you all know-I am Thankful and appreciative for all I have in my life. Thanks again for listening and reading. Take care. Kat

Hard Days in regards to pain

Hi everyone. Hope you are doing well. I have had a hard couple days in regards to bone pain. Some days my body sucks. Bone pain has been in my toes, fingers, ribs, legs, and arms. It sometimes feels like my bones are going to snap in half. Nice huh. I know I should not get down about it-my body is working hard, I get that. But, I still hate it. Even my collar bone hurt today. Throat is still sore but I would take that pain any day over this recent increase of bone pain. My lungs have hurt too-I will keep an eye on that and be seen if it gets worse. Just think it's part of the whole package going on right now. Hope you are all doing well. Thank you so much for reading my blog! I appreciate each of you!

Bone Pain Update

Hi everyone. Hope you are well. Bone pain has been significant lately, ugh. It's like I'm not taking pain medications. I'm trying to exercise regularly to help alleviate some of the pain. Stretching helps a little bit. Making sure I get enough sleep. This time of year is probably not helping. But trying to stay upbeat. Praying for all of you going through hard things. You are so strong. Kat

Try acupuncture...it may help

Hi everyone. Hello to the kind individual who just wrote. I appreciate your nice comments about my blog and about my dealings ith neutropenia. I would suggest you try acupuncture to see if it helps with your neutropenia. I tried acupuncture a year ago and it did help alleviate some of the pain. Unfortunately, I could no longer afford to get regular treatments. And my insurance will not cover it any longer. It did take some time to feel the difference the acupuncture makes-so I hope you are able to feel the difference in your pain. Recently, I have tried massage, since it's not as expensive and I only have it done once a month. It does help with the pain and feels good overall. So, you could try that too if you are able? I'm glad your found my blog. Thanks for reading. Take care of yourself. Kat

Bone pain, July 2013 update

Hi everyone. Thanks again for reading my blog. I hope it helps those that need it. And, Happy 4th July to those in the U.S. and to all those throughout the world. Just an update for those avid readers: I have been feeling nauseous off and on (sometimes occurs when ANC counts fluctuate), exhausted later in the day, and moderate bone pain, even on pain meds. The last few nights the pain was enough to make me rest/get in bed earlier than normal. I have still been exercising and stretching. And, taking vitamins. Just is what it is. Funny how we can get accustomed to higher pain tolerances as time goes on. What is a 5 now (on a 1-10 scale), used to be a 7-8. I assume that will keep happening-the bone pain getting worse-as my body fights harder and harder to get healthy. I get mad sometimes but really-I am so blessed and have so much in my life, it's hard to think about complaining too much. Sure, I want more things, I still have dreams to make differences-but I am honestly happy and content with everything I have now. Family and friends and things I love about life. I hope you find contentment and happiness with the things and people in your life. Take care. Thanks for reading. Kat

May 2013 update

Hello readers. Hope you are doing well and able to take care of yourselves. I would say I'm doing well. I still have my ups and downs but hey, I still here. My bones continue to hurt everyday, more so than before. And, I still have the sore throats, fevers, intermittent lung pains, and fatigue. Just get so tired. Like coma tired. Sleep does not help. So, people telling me to rest does not help (I don't get mad, I know they mean well). I still have days when I just get mad about it all. I get sick of the pain, the fatigue, and just feeling like crap most of the time. What does get under my skin is when others complain about mild symptoms that they have had come on-sore throat, for example. I know that it isn't always there and it does hurt but, really? $&7)&$($. He he. I honestly try not to think too much about "Why me?" Because honestly, why not me? I would rather have this than have the children suffer with it. If I could take neutropenia away from them,I would in a heart beat. Anyway, now I'm just ranting :) wanted to send a quick update. Thanks for reading. Take care. Kat

Mouth Sores

Hi everyone. Thank you for reading my blog. Hope it's helping you or your loved ones. Right now, I have mouth sores. One is in my throat and is about the size if a nickel-although feels like it's half my throat. Very sore, painful, especially when swallowing. Hot water and tea help. Not much else. Thankfully, there us not much more going on with me- just the regular crap, as I like to call it (sore throat, low grade fever, fatigue, and bone pain). Exercise-and just moving around-helps. So, I have been trying to keep up with swimming, walking, running, weights, and the elliptical-not all at once! (Laugh). I alternate and try to keep it to 5 times per week. If I do more, it's too much for my body. Although I do light stuff on my 'days off' like a walk around the neighborhood. Stay healthy everyone. And, take care. Kat

Hate not feeling well

Hi everyone. Hope you are well. I have not been feeling well for about 2 weeks. I have had infections and have already had antibiotics. My body is weak, exhausted, and just doesn't feel right inside my arms & legs (hard to explain the feeling-like when your stomach is hungry and empty-that's as close as I can get too telling you what my arms and legs feel like today). I've had a bad headache, bad sore throat, stomach issues, lung pain, low grade fevers, and significant bone pain. I'm sick of not feeling well-and having others feel bad for my condition and always saying sorry. I'm sorry too. I didn't wish this, want this. The exhaustion is the kind you do not get rid of with sleep. I know this is not going away (although I wish that all th time). But I just want to feel well. I hate feeling sick every frickin' day. Sorry-just frustrated that there is not a lot that can be done and jut sick of feeling this way all the time. I hope you all have a great day. Thanks for reading my rantings.... Kat

Glad you found me

Hi K. I just read your message that you sent to me a week ago. I'm glad that you found me and find the blog helpful. I'm sorry you have neutropenia but, glad you have had no major issues. Thank you everyone for reading my blog. I hope you all find it helpful and interesting! I have been doing well. Still struggle with the same daily issues-fever, bone pain, sore throat, and fatigue-but really try to have a positive outlook. The last couple days, I have been really tired. So, going to try to take it easy. I have been exercising moderately and trying to adjust my diet even further to help with my health. Limiting carbs and eating more protein. At least trying! I wish you all well! Have a great weekend. Kat

Family members better

Hi there. Hope you all are having a great start to 2013! Just wanted to send you a quick update-my family members are better. It was influenza and they are fully recovered. It took a full week. They were miserable during the illness, poor things. I am still hoping to get through it but, I'm not so sure. I'm trying to will myself healthy. But, my bone pain is so bad today-it hurts to move. Yes, it's just the neutropenia crap. It's not influenza. Although, part of me wishes it would just come so I could get it over with. I have no fever, cough, stuffy head, etc. it's just the bone pain from the neutropenia. I am sure my body is working really hard. And, I appreciate that. But, it still sucks. Not to mention, the pain just makes my body exhausted. Just keep hoping that it can fight it off and we can get back to normal around our home. Lastly, I hope that that you all are doing great and will have a very healthy new year! Kat

Happy New Year 2013

Hi everyone. Hope you had a great New Year's Eve. My family stayed in-have some sick ones here. Poor things. High fevers. Up to 103. They do not have neutropenia. They are just miserable. They are hoping they don't share with me, who does have Neutropenia. High fevers are not good for us! I believe they have a nasty virus, not a bacterial infection. I do hope they are better soon. Alternating the ibuprofen and Tylenol to keep the fevers down. On a positive note, I had blood counts done last week and my neutrophil count was 0.9. Higher than it has been in awhile! Yeah! My WBC was 2.5. Perhaps keeping me healthy! Don't get me wrong, I want my family members to get better. I have been eating really well too! Limiting carbs and making sure I get plenty of protein. And tons of fruits and veggies! I had a great protein shake today-vanilla protein, amlond milk, clementines, and coconut. I felt like I should be on the beach! Usually I have more fruit in them, but today, I was just hoping for yummy! And it delivered! I wish you all a very happy and healthy 2013! Take care! Kat

Happy Holidays 2012

Hi everyone. Just wanted to say "Happy Holidays" to everyone. Hope you are doing well and are healthy. I wish you all good health in 2013 and years to come. Take care. Kat

Glad you find my blog helpful.....

Hi there. Thanks to the individual who sent me a message yesterday. I'm sorry you have been dealing with Neutropenia. I'm glad you found the blog helpful to you. That is one of the reasons I started it. Please feel free to message me anytime if you wish to vent or if you have questions. Thanks to everyone who is reading. I appreciate the time you spend reading. Take care everyone. Kat

I really hate Neutropenia today.......

Hi folks. Okay, I probably hate Neutropenia most days, but really hate it when it takes over my life and keeps me in bed for days! Ugh! My throat is sore and raw, lungs hurt-front and back-but no cough, and fatigue so bad it's hard to move. Those with neutropenia know what that fatigue feels like. It takes over and sleep does not relieve this kind of fatigue. I know my body is telling me it's time to rest, but I get it. Can we be done now? I have a low grade fever but nothing too alarming. The meds are keeping that down. There is no underlying infection that I would need to see my doctor for, unless I crash. I do remember what that feels like and will go in if that occurs. But, I'm not there. Anyway, just venting more than anything. I just want to get out of bed and live a normal life! Ugh. Thanks for listening. Hope you are all well and enjoying the long weekend. Take care. Kat

November 2012 update

Hi everyone. Thanks for reading this blog. Much appreciated. I'm doing ok. To be honest, I've been frustrated and depressed about the pain increasing. The pain is in my bones, increasing throughout the day. I've been trying to work with the pain meds to see if I can figure out to make them work better by time of day, taking together or not, etc. I do need to remember to stretch because that does tend to help-life just gets busy, as you all know. I've been good about being 'good to myself'so I don't over-do it. Life continues and I still want to do things. But sometimes it's hard dealing with the daily pain that comes with Neutropenia. So, I continue to move forward as you do too. Thanks for reading. And, I wish the best for you. Kat